Last week was unusual – a number of events happened, some of them I had control over and some of them I had no control over. Given that I was practicing mindfulness, both set of events should have been easier to handle : What I had control over, I should have been able to take calm and well-thought-out actions and what I did not have control over, I should have done the best I could do and leave the rest to the Almighty. What is surprising about the turn of events is this: the events that should have made me reactive and negative did not make me reactive but made me more mindful and hence grateful. But the events which were 100% under my control made me reactive to the extent I ended up falling sick. The villain from the inside, the Judge or the Nafs, succeeded in getting me out of the mindfulness zone. Continue reading
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I am writing this update very late this week – I was unwell for a few days and that made it difficult to spend time blogging. However, I do not want to break the weekly pattern. Hence, here is a short update about 2 mindful experiences that I had: One led me to experience bliss in a very mundane activity like bathing and another one led me to realize one of the most profound lessons on parenting – one that I realized only a few years back, but still keep stumbling in implementing it.
Last week has been a week of stress testing for my mindfulness training. In every new undertaking, there comes a time when the question arises – Is this journey worth it? Am I capable of crossing this bridge? Last week had turned out to be such a time for me where I could observe a lot of commotion in my mind about this mindfulness journey.
For the record, here is my performance on 100 PQ reps: I did not do 100 reps on even one day. In fact, I did not even remember to count. But on the positive side, I was aware of my mind-chatter most of the times and I was able to bring back my mind to calmness by focusing on my breathing or some other physical sensation (this is the essence of a PQ rep – calm your mind by focusing on a physical sensation).
L’aéroport de Genève vous accueille dans un nouvel épisode de ‘Mindfulness Training’ – Geneva Airport welcomes you to another episode of Mindfulness Training. I am at Geneva airport and boarding has already started and I hope I can quickly post an update before I embark on the journey.
It is just 3 weeks in Geneva but it feels like a long time – this is one of the benefits of mindfulness, I guess – time seems to go slow and hence seems long whereas when we are impatient or unmindful, time seems to go fast and hence everything seems short. This is not the first time I am having this experience but definitely this time is remarkably better! All I can say is ‘All praises and thanks to the Almighty for taking me on a journey to a familiar place to practice living in a different way – partly the difference in mindset is due mindfulness, partly due to the fact that I am just a traveler and partly due to the fact that I was reflecting a lot more on death.
But the net effect of all these 3 factors is that I was filled with gratitude – even for the things that did not go my away. Many days, I woke up with the feeling that I have been given a brand new day to make use of – that perspective almost had an immediate impact on my body especially when it did not want to wake up and was under discomfort.
Today, I woke up to the news of the death of a close relative – someone who was living close to us, someone with whom we have had a lot of interactions – the news came as a shock and a sense of sadness engulfed me. Deep in my heart, I wanted to be back in India to attend his funeral prayer and to supplicate to the Almighty to enter this Uncle into His mercy. Intellectually, I understand death and I do think of death often, but even then it is a very different experience when someone close to me died.
I said in one of my earlier posts that it is calm after the storm. The opposite is also true, I guess:). After such a calm and mindful during my first week in Geneva, the second week here has been a rollercoaster – packed with activities, deadlines and surprises at work. I was running around most of the days, with a feeling of trying to catch up with things in a reactive way.
Chennai International Airport welcomes you to another episode of ‘Mindfulness Training’ 🙂 – I am writing this at the airport before taking my Emirates flight to Geneva.
This week has been extremely busy, a week where being mindful would have benefitted me a lot. However, the outcome has been mixed bag – I missed doing PQ reps one day – So, I got 6 out 7 for the last week. In the rest of the 6 days, I have had some great days, really mindful, calm, energized and positive. And a few other days where I was constantly thinking about the past or the future, distracted, trying to do PQ reps to bring me back to the present and feeling the stress in my body.
These kind of days are not new to me, especially when there is travel involved and multiple deadlines come to me at once – leaving me scrambling between different things. But this time, there was a huge difference – I was aware of my thoughts and my body. I could feel the various sensations in my body. I could observe that my mind was often taking me out of the present into the future – So, I have had many flights last week 🙂 – flights of imagination, of course.